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Maybe I should let go, maybe I should hold on. Intense feeling of the unknown closing in and creeping in making your hair stand up. Blood pumping as you hold razor blades looking at the roof and seeing a rope. Should I end it all? Should I just be selfish and rid the pain no matter who gets hurt? Is it really worth it? Gasping for air, I can’t breathe I can’t eat or even think. Fuck! This feels like a nightmare but am awake, even the drugs cant numb the pain. You should have been the first to pick it up, you should have seen his dying, and you should have seen she’s dying. You cared about yourself so much you couldn’t see the pain you were putting them through, you cared about your pain so much that you couldn’t reach a point of yall being a team and beating the pain together. All you cared about was you no one else, it’s okay to be selfish. It’s okay to be afraid and to protect you more than the next person, but did you not see when he/she fell on the ground begging for your help...

When they see me they see a beautiful soul and eyes that can cure diseases, but no one ever stops to help me carry the heavy heart tearing my rib cage apart. No one ever thinks about the dark during the light, my personality lied and couldn't keep up with the lies. Sweat chilled like ice the women say, chilled respectful young man the men say, until the monster comes out and suddenly I am not a human being anymore. No one cared enough to see the bad beyond my smile, no one cared to hold my hand when I wasn't sure... Super smart but equally stupid, ran a mile with thorns piercing my feet thinking am strong in the aftermath I found myself in pain and agony. Should have put my shoes on while I had the chance made excuses that I couldn't find shoelaces. Now I sit with scars as reminders of my stupid decisions,mellow and tender voice with a straight face the devil smile behind, cheerful and motivational words couldn't help myself. Speaking in tongues hoping to be understoo...

Maybe if the rainbow really symbolized a happy ending the storm would not be as aggressive, maybe if too much of a good thing wasn't bad life would be easier. Sunsets are hope to a new beginning or an end to a happy present, come to think of it everything is catastrophic it all depends on how you perceive life. The sun rises only to set, comes to brighten up your day only for the night to bring darkness. We can conclude life is yin and yang and sometimes the deck you are dealt is fixed for you to loose before even playing the game. Its not easy not being able to put the pain and the emotion into words, no one understands how you feel they only understand you not okay. Climbing a mountain is fun and conquering it is the ultimate goal but you always have to be prepared for when you trip and fall while at the top. The feeling of emptiness and powerlessness cannot be measured or quantified that's how horrible and deep it goes, it tears you apart from the inside out. Pain covere...

This might come as a cliche but do we really know what happiness or true happiness entails? Often we are moved by the material things of this world and we perceive them as our source of happiness. We tend to worship the material things of this world or turn other human beings into our source of happiness. Most people's happiness is dependant on the external things or friendships and relationships, no one ever takes the time to dig deep within and find their true happiness. I am going to try and share my opinion with regards to happiness, my experience with happiness and how i got to a point of appreciating myself and actually being happy with myself without external factors influencing how i feel about myself. Often we fail to realise that we are born whole and spend most of our lives if not all trying to find our source of happiness when its buried deep within us. If only we could get to a point whereby we realise that it is very vital that we find happiness within us, and sto...

Have you forgiven yourself? yes am talking to you, il ask once more have you forgiven yourself? for all the things you couldnt accomplish at the time you had set out? Have you forgiven yourself? Your heart feels heavy and you have so much sadness and envy inside. That little sting you feel when someone achieves something, that little voice inside your head that says why not me you need to heal from that. Most of the time the hate and the envy you have is projected by your own failures, mostly its about the things you couldn't achieve because for some reason you have put yourself under a lot of pressure to achieve everything at once forgetting that our timelines are different therefore you should not compare your life with someone's life. You need to remind yourself that everyday is a new day and you can start again, you need to know that everyday is an opportunity to better your life. Its amazing that human beings are so obsessed with success but only 20% puts in the work requ...

Its at that time of the night when all your demons come out to play, the thoughts and regrets of what you could have done better. Its the silence between your ears that says nothing all you hear is a melodic sorrow. Its the whispers in your head and the tears behind your eyes that burn like fire, its the thirst in your throat, loosing your breath and your chest contracting and you cant breath, your heart feels like its about to pop out and all you can do is lie there helpless. Everyone is going through something that you do not know of, and they are trying their best to hold it together be kind to the next person you meet. The problem is thinking you are the only one going through the most, the problem is thinking the world revolves around you, the problem is thinking everything should be about you. Be kind to that cashier, be kind to the cleaner, be kind to the garage attendant, be kind to that bank teller, be kind to the security guard, be kind to the person that greets you even wh...

Ladies and gentleman welcome to my blog, over the years i have tried to have a meaningful blog and use it to better people's lives and promote positivity. Countless times i have failed but this time around i believe i have found the perfcet one and i promise nothing but meaningful content. I believe now its safe to say i have found the perfect space to share with everyone out there. I have always wanted to create a blog that can bring people together and at the same time be informative. Am going be sharing my articles, people's businesses, motivational qoutes and the short stories that i have authored. i look forward to interacting with all of you and please dont be stingy read comment and share on all your social media platforms your support to grow "OleChapters" into one big power blog will be highly appreciated!!!! "OleChapters" by Olebogeng R Motsanana.